FRIENDSHP QUESTION

 

MY DEFINITION OF A BEST FRIEND

MOST EXCELLENT & SUITABLE A PERSON YOU KNOW WELL. YOUR ALLY,SUPPORTER,& SYMPATHIZER. ONE WHOM YOU CAN EMPATHIZE WITH. ONE YOU CONSIDER SINCERE,TRUSTWORTHY,& HONEST. TO HAVE HE UP MOST RESPECT & REGARD FOR & ONE WHOM YOU GIVE YOURSELF OPENLY TO.

rRECENTLY  MY BFF AND I HAVE HAD A FALLEN OUT . WE HAVE NOT TALKED IN ABOUT  THREE WEEKS. I HAD BEEN SILENT ON ISSUES THAT WERE  BOTHERING ME BECAUSE IN A PREVIOUS LETTER IN WHICH I EXPLAINED MY FEELING  THE LETTER JUST CAUSED A FIGHT WITH NO RESOLUTION. I ALSO HAD COME TO THE POINT IN WHICH I FELT THAT CERTAIN PLACES CAUSED MY FEELINGS TO BE MORE OPEN FOR HURT WERE NOT THE PLACES IN WHICH I WOULD BE HANGING WITH MY BFF  IN ORDER TO SAVE OUR FRIENDSHIP IN WHICH I HOLD DEAR TO MY HEART FOR I LOVE HER LIKE MY SISTER. 

OONE AFTERNOON AT HER HOUSE I HAD A ANXIETY ATTACK AND I TEXTED HER TO SEE IF MAYBE HER NANNY WHO LIVED AROUND THE CORNER COULD FINISH WATCHING THE KIDS AND THE WHOLE THING GOT BLOWN WAY OUT THERE . THE NEXT THING I KNOW NOT EVEN REALIZING SHE WAS MAD WAS SHE HAD UN FRIENDED ME ON FACEBOOK AND MESSAGED ME SAYING SHE HATED ME SHE READ THE  MESSAGE I SENT ONE OF OUR FRIENDS AND I WAS A SORRY ASS BITCH .  

THE MESSAGE WAS NOTHING THAT I WOULDN T HAVE SAID TO HER BUT WHEN WE TRIED TALKING ABOUT THE SUBJECT IN WHICH MY MESSAGE WAS ABOUT WE COULDN T BECAUSE IT WAS STARTING A FIGHT AND I REALLY DON T UNDERSTAND WHY? IT WASN'T ANY BAD NAME CALLING OR ANYTHING LIKE THAT JUST A BRIEF OPINION ON THINGS  AND SHE WANTED TO END OUR FRIENDSHIP OVER IT.

I HAVE RECENTLY TEXT HER AND SHE MADE PLANS TO TALK ABOUT THINGS BUT I DON T HAVE A PHONE AND I RECIEVED ANOTHER TEXT FROM HER SAYING I GUESS U CHANGED YOUR MIND OOK WHATEVER 

I AM SO CONFUSED HOW MUCH WE ARE ALIKE BUT IN THE DSAME SO DIFFERENT IN THE WAY OF RELATIONSHIPS . I UNDERSTAND THAT WHAT WE HAVE DOESN'T COME AROUND OFTEN AND FOR HER TO JUST SPOUT OUT HATE AND END IT WITHOUT EVEN TALKING JUST BLOWS MY MIND. WHAT TO DO WHEN YOU KNOW THAT IF YOU MAKE UP YOU STILL WON'T GET EMOTIONALLY WHAT YOU NEED FROM THE RELATIONSHIP BUT YOU STILL WANT SOME KIND OF RELATIONSHIP?? HELP?